A lil update...

Hi friends!

Wow, it has been a long time since i’ve written a blog post. To be 100% honest, I never knew if I would write a blog post again. There’s a lot i’ve been wanting to share but there’s also so much to update you all on and so I felt like I needed to write an ‘update’ post before I started sharing any other type of content.

Last time I was writing blog posts, we were living in Hawaii, my baby was only about 8 months old, and I was struggling big time. Becoming a mother and then covid-19 hitting all within three months rocked me to my core. We were supposed to be getting out of the army but when covid hit, all our plans changed. Alongside those stressors, I was struggling with postpartum depression and anxiety. It hit me almost over night, but once it came, it came in unrelenting waves that I could not seem to shake. Sadly, I did not have the support I needed in Hawaii to help me overcome this mental battle I was struggling with. I became even more isolated and barely left my house. It took every ounce of energy inside me to just take care of my new baby. I lived in paralyzing fear but I did not know how to talk about it, so I stayed silent. I would tell loved ones that I was going through a hard time but I had no idea how to express the gravity of the situation I was facing. It was a really really hard time.

Leaving Hawaii saved me. We came back to our hometown in Southern California in the middle of September and Wynn Leigh and I stayed with family while my husband went to an 8 week army training. Being back in the familiarity of family and old friends made me come to terms with just how bad I was struggling. I started going to a new counselor and I opened up to my loved ones about what I was going through. The love and acceptance I felt from them all was so healing. Slowly, day by day, I began feeling better. It’s been a long process but I am so grateful for where I am today.

Throughout the last year, I questioned everything. Should I shut down my blog and delete my Instagram? During the months of constant struggle, the pressure I put on myself to ‘keep up’ was unbearable. I wanted to just delete everything and never show my face online again. Sometimes I still feel that way, to be honest. But I always kept coming back to a love for sharing, connecting, and creating. I love creating beautiful things. I love sharing my favorite new finds and connecting with other wives, mama’s, and business owners. There are so many beautiful aspects about social media when you can consume it in small doses and not let it change you or your perception of yourself.

Back to the update… After my husbands 8 week army training, we purchased our first home in Tacoma, WA where my husband is currently stationed. We bought a 100 year old fixer-upper in the cutest neighborhood. Sadly, because of all the renovations it needed, Wynn Leigh and I have stayed in CA while my husband is in WA working and fixing up the house. It’s been weird having my family separated for so long and I am so ready to be reunited. At the same time, I am so grateful for all the time I have had at home in California. I feel like I have found myself again.

I am finishing this blog post about three weeks later and we are now settled in to our new home in WA! I couldn’t be more excited to be reunited as a family again and to be starting this new adventure.

This almost year long break of taking time offline was so influential for me. It really solidified my purpose and what I want to share going forward. I still want to share wellness content, favorite recipes, and beauty posts, but I also want to share more about motherhood, marriage, and our life in the military. If you are still reading this post, thank you so much! I am so grateful for my online friends and I really do love sharing my life with you all.

Stay tuned for more content coming soon…